it won't be long til you forget my name
Im back...hopefully for good for awhile!
Hey..how is everyone. Been a long time. Yeah, I dont know, been all over. Im back home now hopefully going to settle for a while. Iv been through so many changes lately. And to top it all off I get a semester out of school to do whatever I may like. But I still have to work , so Im currently employed at McDonalds lol pretty sad, but moneys money. SO yeah, I actually got over my problems and doing well. The only bad part is that my boyfriend is in jail. Iv been dating him for over 4 months now. Yay me lol. Hmm...I'll post some more junk later.
Wow..this is exciting today. Went to the dells today. Iv noticed Im tehre very fucking day of the week...even on my days off. But today i was just hanging out with Steven and Danny and Nick. This post is worthless.
Oh wait! If anybody has the 3 steps in Humping a Hippo. Let Me Know ASAP. Anything will do. Just need the steps. LOL Talk to Yall Later
RIP Jesse Heller Kevin Beahm Mark Riverwood
how can this happen???? They were always so careful!!! God, fucking stupid! Why didnt they just pick me up .... they always had make it competitive! 
Jesse! 3 years...3 fucking years of secrets...just now revealed. And now they are ripped away from me...and buried with you. I wish I could talk to you once more...kiss ou once more...tell you how I feel just Once More!
Kevin...You were such am awesome friend. You were like by big brother. Always looking out for me. Who's going to look out for me now??????
Mark- You were one of my closest friends. I told you everything. And you told me everything. Now you left me nd Katie here. Alone. I talked to Katie this morning. We cried for so long. I dont know how Katie is going to deal.
Hey well Im finally back from the busy week. It was actually 7 days. But it was awesome. Wed.-Sunday I had fair, my horse went crazy. and then Monday I left for Tomahawk. I love that place. Im moving there when Im older. At the lake we went Jet Skiing, Water Skiing, and tubing. So much fun! Me and nathan snuck around at night hehe. Nithing happened unfortunatly...Well not Im going to Parker Lake with Adam and Cody. Be back later to write more!
Well from today to Sunday I will be in Westfeild. Marquette Co. Fair is going on and I, The hick that I am, have to show my animals. I love the fair though. Been going since I could walk...well before that even. Grew up with the showing family and now I have been showing horses for 6 years...wait 7 this year. Crazy how it all goes by so fast. I have to get up at 5...and we have to load Cheyenne by 6:30. Gosh! Way too early. This week is going to go by so slow. Next Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday I have Officer Retreat in Tomahawk for FFA. Thats going to be fun I hope. Well yeah, This post is a waste. And since I gotta wake up at 5 I might as well start going to bed. Need my sleep. Later Yall.
I am so bored. But whats new?? I just got done playing cards with cody, i beat him. I think. Well today at work kinda sucked. I put on a dress and fishnet tights and heels..so not cool. Anywho. This post is basically worthless and dont bother reading father than this if you have something better to do. ITs pretty much me babbling. OH hey! I have a new entry in my poems book.
Nothing
Starring.Out in the emptiness. Looking for something. Finding nothing. I am nothing. For I have no exsistance anymore. There is still a rivet in the sand. From where we were still. Only one parcel. The rest washed away. Soon. Every bit will be forgotten. And It will be like nothing ever happened. Wait. If we ever want it back. How will we?
I feel like the bad guy now. Its not that I dont like him, cuz I do...We just arn't right for each other. I mean if theres any doubt what so ever its not right. I didnt mean to hurt him if I did. But we are 15. How could it last forever? We both need time to mature and find a path to follow, and if our paths cross then We'll try again. Holy crap...I didn't even think about work now. Its going to be so awkward. Ok, I want to be friends. Is that okay with you? Please don't hate me.
matt
